"I count every single instance you’ve stood at the door like prisoners count their time—etched in my heart as their days are etched on walls."
Anonymous

Only

     There is something unjustifiably sad about the word “only”. A word that is as ambiguous as it pleads to be certain.

     It may either speak of completeness—

     ”I have only this.”

     —or of incompleteness—

     ”I have only this.”

     There is peace and discord, certainty and uncertainty, finality and transience—all so much in a single word. It promises so much, and at the same time, nothing. It is that single variability that creates the only point of certainty of the word, the dictating of whatever comes after it to bring its own closure. So one must speak of only’s cautiously; until you speak of it, there is no certainty of where your mind really lies.

Still Happy

     I realize it’s been a while since I last posted for #100HappyDays here on Tumblr—I’ve probably even gone past a hundred days since my last post. But no matter—I’ve figured that even if I’ve missed all those days of letting the world know what’s made me happy, I still have been, really. With some of the most fun days and awesome people in the world.

     I’ll get around to catching up soon. But I’ll probably start with yesterday, July 15. I don’t really mind that I’ve broken some rules; I’ve followed the top one. Be happy. :)

2:23 AM

     Heaven knows I’m not the kindest or bravest person, but I’ve had my own share of awful things in the world. And I believe every person deserves something beautiful in return for sharing part of their lives with at least one other person, because we all need that company. We all need that touch. We all need that change.

     So don’t take this one away from me. I have it better off than some, but I’m only human, and the scars nobody sees are the ones I’ve hidden so well. I honestly don’t know where I’d be without this kind of happiness. I honestly don’t know how broken I’d be if I didn’t have this at that one moment I realized how weak and vulnerable I was.

     Don’t take this one from me.

     I deserve this love.

#100HappyDays | Day 26
College Collision 7! This was only the tip of the iceberg, but damn if it wasn’t one of my best nights in college so far. Congratulations and good job, DZUP Radio Circle!

#100HappyDays | Day 26

College Collision 7! This was only the tip of the iceberg, but damn if it wasn’t one of my best nights in college so far. Congratulations and good job, DZUP Radio Circle!